Misguided Ghosts

"The ones we trusted the most, Pushed us far away"
- Paramore

Yeah, i totally agree with that. I've trusted a lot of people who just completely let me down. I've been hurt countless times by the one that i loved. Emotionally and physically. I'm tired of trying to please people by acting like who i'm not. I'm tired of doing everything i can to please someone and just get hurt in the end. I'm tired of lies. I'm tired of being who i'm not. So, in todays post, i'm gonna let you guys in my real self.

Hello, i'm Izzati. I'm turning fifteen in a month. I have best friends whom i love to death. But, the one who can really make my day and understands me are Aina Aqila Aminuddin and Syaza Jeffry. I'd protect them to the grave if i could. I've never been inlove until now. But, not with who you think i am. I'm inlove with a person who doesn't know i exist and who is completely in the other side of the world. I'm inlove with someone i can't get. I'm inlove with a guy named Robert Pattinson. No one understands what i feel towards him. Do you know how much it hurts to be inlove with something or someone you can't get? It hurts so so bad that getting hurt physically feels like a papercut. I'm not inlove with someone i'm suppose to be inlove with and i know that i won't be inlove with him. So, dump me. What the hell do i care. I have a brother who loves to make me laugh and another brother who i'm not really proud of. He hurt me countless times physically and emotionally. I'm a total nerd when it comes to celebrities especially the one that i really love which is, Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Ask me anything about them, i'll do my best to answer it. I can be a bitch at times and i love being one. And i have a pretty big ego. My policy is "Forgive and never Forget". I hate people who talk bad about my friends especially the ones who talk about Syaza. Pffft... even if you talk bad about her, you won't be as pretty as her. So, why don't you shut it? AssHoles. I'm tired of trying to please and be everything i can to this someone when i know it won't change anything about the way that someone loves me. I hate hypocrites. I hate people who suck up to their friends just to please them. Oh, i know someone who does that. I know her pretty well. Well, i guess that's all i can tell about myself. GOODBYE :)